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Monday, October 31, 2005 Y

Spent the whole day, unable to concentrade on my work. Everytime I look at my books, her face seem to appear before me. Ended up keep on thinking of those times we spent studying together, those little moments we shared together. I know that we don't have much time left but somehow just cant seem to be able to concentrade. Plus kept on listening to Jay's Ge Qian, quite a sad song that sorta depict my mood. So I was like listening and thinking of her at the same time.

Than in the afternoon, Jia Hao brought Magdalene to talk to me. Although I agreed with what she told me but I don't really felt much better at all. And in the evening I went over to Bing Hong house since really had no mood to do anything at all. Than when over there, I realised I could see her block from here. I counted out her floor and looked over, I saw that the arrangement of that unit was something like what she told me. The computer being beside the TV and all that. So I msg her and ask her, her house was facing which view. And when she told me it was facing the playground, my heart skipped a beat.

Than I ask her if she could like come to window since I miss her. At first she was like duwan la, pai sei. But after that she really came to the window. Felt really happy to see her. My mood was definately better when I left my friend house.

Than at night when I went down somehow dunno what is wrong with me sia. Still cannot study, just sitting there holding my book and staring into space. In the end called her about 10, although I really was happy to hear my voice, but din really felt like talking for long. So the call barely lasted 6 mins. After the call, just send her a good night msg and tried to continue studying. But it was just no good so I just went home and went online.

She was online than chatted with her a bit, and she kept on asking me to go and study. I told her ok but I did not study, instead I went to sleep early hoping the next day I would not think of her so much and actually could do some serious studying...

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Saturday, October 29, 2005 Y

Today dunno why so tired, actually slept till 1++ pm. Than had a quick lunch before went down to the reading room to study. Continued on chemistry, because really wanted to finish my chem first before starting on anything else.

Than when I message Jasmine and after 1 reply. Heard nothing from her, so felt really sad. Since I knew she went out with her friends today. So maybe she was having too good for a time and forgotten about me. Din wan to send another message since I don't wan to appear as being too clingly. After all, she do have the right to enjoy herself and go out with her friends so must respect that... However it was like the whole afternoon really couldn't concentrade on doing my work.

Than after dinner it was still the same, really had to mood to do any work, kept on thinking of her. But this lady came into the reading room and sorta try to act funny because there was no more space in there. So she got the guard to ask everyone for the resident pass and to sign in. Really felt that she a bit too much lor. That time also I was just talking to my friend and she walked over and said, I think you are disturbing the others in the room, pls lower ur volume. I was like hello? Do you even come down often, there are many people who are even noiser than this. Than in the end, went outside with Jia Hao and Bing Hong and sort of like talking how bad the lady was and how attitude she is.

Anyway, after that still could not concentrade so I went outside, sat by the staircase and message Jasmine again. This time saying I was feeling down and really felt like talking to her. She did reply me once saying that her phone was no batt. But after when I said I felt like talking to her again, there was no reply from her. And when I called her, no one picked up the phone.

And when I reach home, she was online so I chatted with her. She was giving me this kind of 1 word answer and is like I felt that she treated me very different, so distanced herself from me. So I was like thinking, maybe I really have been reading too much into the pass few days. And she was only treating me as a good friend or maybe a brother. So feel really depressed. After she went offline, saw that Yong Xin on msn. Yong Xin sorta remind me of Jasmine since both of them were like the head of NPCC.

Anyway started chatting with Yong Xin since she always have been understanding and really lend a ear to hear your problems. Than I called her and we chatted on the phone, and she gave me advices and all that. After that we started talking about other stuff and I really dun feel so hurt over Jasmine anymore. Getting this thing off my chest really felt so much better, thank a lot Yong Xin, I owe you one.

Btw, today is my god-sis Sarah birthday. Sorry that I din get you anything since I have been really busy, but I promise to make it up for you next year =P Happy Birthday Sis, Love ya!

About Jasmine, all I can say the pass few days with you has been wonderful. And no matter how our relationship might be in the future, I will always treasure this few precious moments we share together. Right now, I should get my piorities right and concentrade on the A's first.

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Friday, October 28, 2005 Y

Since last night studied with Jasmine until quite late, was quite worried that she might be too tired and miss her paper. So I woke up at 8am and called her making sure she was awake. At first a little worried since I called 2 times but no one answered the phone, after that she msg me back that she was already getting ready to go to school. After that couldn't really get back to sleep, so was kinda lazing around on my bed.

Than after went down to study with Bing Hong. Since Jasmine was going out with her friends in the afternoon, I ask her if she wanted to catch a movie at night. Than after a while she repiled back that she was no longer meeting her friends so we could catch a movie. Had a hard time deciding what movie to watch over the phone so I decided to meet her first and we could go over to JP to take a look. So I arranged to meet her under her block at 3.30 When I was waiting there, suddenly saw her sis walking out of the block with her parents. Her sis sure reconised me but dun think her parents knew. Or if her sis told her parents anything.

Anyway, she came down after a while because wasn't really convienent for her to leave same timing as her parents. She look simply lovely. So we went to JP and went straight to the cinema and check of the shows. We decided on the chinese show "All About Love" at 5pm. I paid for the tickets and told her that this was considered my treat since the previous day she been treating me here and there.

And since she still have not eaten her lunch yet, we went to Long John for lunch. She saw her friend working there and he gave her a extra packet of fries. Jasmine treated me a drink and we chatted while eating lunch. We were there all the way until it was time for the movie. So we went in and settled down. The chair was very comfy XD Our seats were J-9/10 There was plenty of advertisment before the movie actually started. Anyway the movie was like around 1 hour and 45 mins. Found it really nice, the last part was kinda touching and the beginning may be a little confusing. But overall found the show not bad.

Than after the movie, we still had time before she went to meet her friends at 9pm so it was like she wanted to accompany me for dinner before than. When we went after the movie, the place was packed so we decided to walk around first. After that we went back to KFC and managed to get a place. Since she was going for supper with her friends later. So I ordered a salad with a drink and a small whipped potato. Acutally wanted her to eat it but she insisted that she was still very full. So we chatted around while I had my dinner, and chatted all the way up till 9pm before she went to look for her sis and friends.

Had a great time today,but like did not study much today, so I guess tomorrow got to work double time. All About Love Is really quite a nice show, and I guess the person u watch it with also contribute to how nice the show is. Oh well... 10 days left to A Levels T_T Wish me luck...

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Thursday, October 27, 2005 Y

Today almost spend the whole day with Jasmine again. She had gp exam in the morning and than I met her for lunch after that. We went to westmall kfc for lunch and really had a great time chatting with each other. And she treated me a whipped potato which somehow taste much nicer than usual =P

And since she was tired, she wanted to rest first before she continue studying. So we reach back home around 3pm and we met up at 4.30 pm and headed for the mac near our house to study. She was very cute when joking around with one of the staff there, a young lady. And we shared a meal together for dinner, we used the coupons so that you get something free when u ordered an extra value meal. SO i ordered a Fillet O Fish EVM and she took a Mchicken and we ordered another drinks. Because she insited that her lemon tea cost more than usual, so she would not accept more money from me and only took 4 dollars. She said that this was considered her treat and next time would be my turn to treat her.

After dinner, we continued studying until 11pm than we went over westmall mac. I think the environment was not really suitable for studying, loud music and people talking quite loudly around. When we left at around 2.30 she still got a whole chunk which she have not studied yet. And when we were there she treated me to coffee,and refused to accept my money and instead said that next time will be my treat. Felt really bad, when she start paying for all these things. Anyway when we walked all the way back,the journey was consider quite long. And yea, it was kinda my fault since it was my sugesstion to go to westmall mac when she wanted to go to JEC mac. So it was a very long walk back home, and with those puddles after the rain and all that, it was far from enjoyable. Hope she dun hold it against me, today was really far from perfect, In fact, could be considered a downright disaster.

Than now as I am writing this out, been smsing her and apologising her for today, She was really very understanding and say that it wasn't really my fault. But still I hope that after today it wont put a strain on our relationship.

Another thing, make a dedication to her on 933 today. Basically I wished her all the best for her exams tomorrow and said that I really enjoyed studying with her. Than the DJ sorta add in her own comments at the back. The DJ said something like so been studying hard and at the same time enjoying the sweetness of love, so envious. After hearing the DJ saying that my face was like XD But din managed to let her listen to it before her exam due as I wasn't able to record it on time. Since Bing Hong helped me recorder it, so perhaps only next time can get to let her listen to it.

Lastly, like to say sorry to Jasmine again for today, really was like =X my fault. And since tml is her last paper, I dun really know if we get another chance to be together or so for the next few days. Yea, I really liked her a lot and even now as I am typing this out, I am missing her. Really never felt this way towards any other girl before and I feel that she is just perfect...

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Wednesday, October 26, 2005 Y

Went to school for physics remedia today. But I really wonder why is it even called a remedia. Reach school,din even get to see ing keat. Called him den he said to take a set of paper outside the staffroom and do. The thing is it also comes with answer, so I don't really see the point of doing it in school. ANyway, me,cl and Jl did the paper together. Than we discussed the paper 1 answers with each other before starting paper 2. I was a bit sien and did not really feel like doing it. Den I msg Jasmine, arranged to meet her at mac for lunch and to study.
Went straight from pj, at first thought I would be late since she said she will be there around 1.40pm. Turns out that we reach almost at the same time, at 2pm. Than we had our lunch and chat at the same time. Really enjoyed talking to her. Than after that we started studying. Attempted physics paper 2 but quite few things not too sure of and that ing keat doesn't seem like wanting to go throught the paper with us. After that I did chemistry mcq test my concept. Did questions from 86 all the way up to 2003. Hopefully I will still remember most of them by A levels.

When we studying halfway, her sis came to mac with her friends. Than when it was around 6.30++ we decided to leave for dinner. All of us left together, and her sis's friends was really funny sia, because the 3 of them have been following us for some time. And the guy did not realised that Jasmine was actually Jessica's sister, so he was wondering why they were following us. Than when we reach the traffic light, her sis and her friends went the other directly and gave Jasmine a funny look because leaving. Than me and Jasmine continue talking right up to her door step.

Than after dinner, brought down some gp notes for Jasmine as promised and I studied with her. Since I thought Bing Hong was not coming down. When we were about to go home it started raining, so I shelter Jasmine all the way to her block. However I felt that I should've done something more...

ANyway, today was quite productive, nearly finished all 3 chapters of chem mcq and I think my relationship with Jasmine did improve maybe by a notch or 2. But after this friday exam's, Jasmine will have her school hols and she won't be studying anymore edi. Will I ever have the chance to study with her again??? Really enjoyed the times we spent together, and when I study with her I seem to be able to get more work done. I will just have to see how things go I guess...

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Tuesday, October 25, 2005 Y

This morning went back to school for ct. Wake up so early jus for ct and ended up mr tan never even come to class. ZZZ If I known, I should haf slept till later. Anyway, we went to mac to eat breakfast, I jus love their big breakfast extra value meal,taste really great! =P Went with cl,jl,james and the girls were there as well. Really enjoy this kinda little "outings" in the midst of preparing for the a level. AFter this went back to school for chem, but I a bit sleepy since I slept at 2.30 last nite and this morning woke up at 7am. Was semi awake during chem but lucky mdm goh din go throught anything of major importance...

After chem,went to coe with adnan,james and cl. Tried to do a bit of revision before the maths mock. Ended up messaging Jasmine instead. Bascially asked her how did her exam was and started chatting with her. Den I found out that she was going to mac to study again in the night, I jokingly said I wan to study with her but who knows she actually said "ok, see you then." And when she wished me good luck for the exam, I thought that this was one exam I could do quite well in due to her motivation. However this paper was not easy, much harder than our prelims. However still managed to scrape an O. And for my prelims I got a F. So there is a slight improvement. But this is still not good enough, I really hope to get a B for my maths during the a level exams.

Anyhow, after the exam, go through the answers until around 6pm den I went home. On the bus met charlene and she ask what I think of Jiayan I Vivien since I always study with them. Well, I admit that even recently I still have feelings for her but I have given up some time back, ever since I know she was attached. As for Vivien, it jus feel a little strange talking to her. No offence, I mean she is nice and all that but not really for me. This was what I told charlene, no idea why must she bring this up now. Anyway I dun like to dwell on the past and have already given up hope on Jiayan long ago.
After dinner, immediately packed my bag and went to mac to meet jasmine. When I just arrived there I was quite nervous. The table was wet since she place her drink on the table and her offered to get the servettes and I could feel myself blushing. And after the table was wiped and I took out my books, my hand was still shaking from nervousness and i could not write anything at all. Hopefully she din my nervousness =X After that I tried the maths paper again this time with the hints that mr chia has given but still it was rather hard to do and I only managed to complete a few more questions. After that did a little on food chemistry before I switch back to doing statistics for maths.

In between did exchange a couple of small talk with Jasmine. Found out that Jessica was actually her sis, really unexpected because they look quite different. And also got to find out more about Jasmine, about why she took this couse as well. In fact I feel really comfortable talking to her. Jessica was studying there as well, but I find her very considerate, at 10.45pm, she made a move first. I think so that she could give me and Jasmine opportunity to walk to together ba.
At 11pm, we left mac, Jasmine brought her bike along and she push it along as we walk home. We chatted all the way back. I offer to send her to her block and bided her good nite before I went home.
Felt really happy that now I am a little closer to Jasmine compared to last saturday. Actually ever since I saw her a few years back in the reading room, thought that she was cute. BUt I was too afraid too made any actions. It was only until this very saturday that I decided to do something about it, so I wrote a note saying that wanting to be friends with her. At first I thought it was a lost cause since her first msg was asking who I was, and after I told her, she din reply me =( But the next day I sms her wishing her good luck for her exam (recieved a simple thanks from her ^^ ) The next day I decided to take it a step furthur so started asking about her exams and chatted with her a bit, got to know her better in the process. Anyway, comparing today with the pass few days, I must say that there is a definate improvement in our relationship.

Jasmine is really someone that I could feel at ease talking to and today was really a fantastic day. Not sure if I get such chances in future but I hope we could get to be even better friends... Thus here marks the end of a great day...

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