Thursday, August 30, 2007 Y

Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
Do you think i'm wasting my time
Doing things I wanna do?'
Cuz it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that I'm all right
and you can't change me'

Cuz we lost it all
Nothing last for ever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard just to talk to you'
Cuz you don't understand

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I got into an accident today on my way back from camp. Can you imagine how deeply hurt I was when I stepped into my home. Saw my dad eating dinner at the dining table.

I said "Dad, I got into an accident"
He looks up at me and than continue eating.
I said again "Dad, din u heard what i just said? I got into an accident"
He replied me "So?" And continue eating.

I am deeply hurt that my own dad doesn't even care about if I am hurt or how the accident even happens...

After facing a rough day at camp and coming home to this kind of welcome, makes u really wonder why do I come home for?

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Tuesday, August 28, 2007 Y

谢谢你的温柔
歌手：s.h.e/飞轮海

谢谢你如此温柔
捧着爱情静静等候
我的双手
其实同样在颤抖
但我能给你什么
我只是一个他遗忘的我
心被一扫而空
我会把你种在我心中
也许某天会终于
再次长出一个梦

不知道不明了不想要
为什么我的心
明明是想靠近
却孤单到黎明

不知道不明了不想要
为什么我的心
那爱情的绮丽
总是在孤单里
再把我的最好的爱给你

谢谢你如此温柔
点着笑容的灯火
只温暖而不打扰我的寒冬
还没决定往哪走
才所以不能答应你陪我
怕你会变成我
我会把你种在我心中
也许某天会终于
再次长出一个梦

不知道不明了不想要
为什么我的心
明明是想靠近
却孤单到黎明

不知道不明了不想要
为什么我的心
那爱情的绮丽
总是在孤单里
再把我的最好的爱给你

不知道不明了不想要
为什么我的心
明明是想靠近
却孤单到黎明
不知道不明了不想要
为什么我的心
那爱情的绮丽
总是在孤单里
再把我的最好的爱给你

谢谢你如此温柔
点着笑容的灯火
只温暖而不打扰我的寒冬
还没决定往哪走
才所以不能答应你陪我
怕你会变成我

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Monday, August 27, 2007 Y

I still find camp life very unplesant. Wish it all end soon. I am afraid I might be reaching my breaking point soon and just break down. Really appeciate those of you who were by my side whenever things seem too much to bear. Cant imagine how I could ever survive in LTB without u guys... Pls continue to provide me the support that I need for these last 2 months... I really cant bear this any much longer... T_T

Lately I just find myself being rather depressed. Dunno why am I behaving this way. Guess there are just many things on my mind both work related and personnal matters as well. My mood seem to be like a rollercoaster ride, I am fine where I am doing something. But when there is nothing to do, my mind starts to think of all sort of thing. And than my mood completely punged into depression. SAVE ME!

Anyway last weekend managed to enjoy it. Went with my camp friends to celebrate Seamus/Zi Qin's birthday. We had steamboat buffet at bugis. The Ma La soup really spicy sia, I jus take one bowl and my eyes started tearing le. So in the end i keep stealing food from the tomyam side XD

Had a lot of fun chatting and eating at the same time. I guess we seldom get to do this in such a big grp ba =X

After lunch, we went to walk around sunshine plaza. And yap they all wanted to go to some japanese sch thingy which I had no interest in. So I ended up going to PS with Brandon to buy some stuff. By than it was already evening and he had to go.

So I thought since I was in the area I stop by Chrysa's shop again. This time her sis was there. And if I say its been long since I last saw chrysa, den its must be UBER long since I last saw Michelle XD Had lots of fun chatting with her and disturbing her bear =P

Anyway I hang out till they closed and I bought a pair of nice looking jeans. Her mum only charge me $25 and she even gave me a shirt for free @@ Thx aunty XD After that they went for dinner/supper while I went home. Had an enjoyable but tiring day ^^

Friday went to eat japanese food with my parents. Quite expensive but it tasted not bad. Love the takoyaki~ Yummy!

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Thursday, August 23, 2007 Y

That day I went to sim , I actually want to register for the course I want. But once I reach there and went to the count, suddenly I thought to myself. Sure it may be an interesting topic but what kind of course should I opt for? This is not something that can be change once the application is submitted. And we are talking about 3 to 4 years kind of thing here.

I really wanted to take Psychology and Communication Double Major. But than I was thinking would I be able to cope with 2 majors? Or since I was already planning to take double major, might as well take the double degree? Or what kind industry awaits me once I graduate. So I decided to head back and reconsider my option. Plus if I choose this kind of course, would be hard to get the backing from my father.

Anyway after that, I went over to Chrysa's shop at far east. Her mother did not seen me for quite some time and she said I seem to grow taller @@ I stop growing ever since I was in JC XD After time chatted a bit with chrysa about sim since she was studying there currently. Anyway it was nice chatting with her and her mum since it was quite a long time since I really talk or seen her. Promise I would buy some clothes the next time I go down! =X

But after going there, I also had something else to consider about. Her mum ask me what not take up a buiness degree instead. I also had a couple of friends who asked me the same thing. But I really in a dilema, doing something that I have interest in. Or doing something that is practical and where there bound to be a future in. Anyway I still have some time before I submit my application in so I really need to do some hard thinking within this period.

And today took halfway off again cause I had duty the day before. Dunno why but after doing duty, I dun feel much like working the following day XD heh. So I went to watch Bourne Ultimatum with Hairi this afternoon. Was a good show with plenty of action.

Anyway Seow came back from his long long MC and its always good to have another hand around. We been short of manpower for a really long time. Cant wait for the new guys to come in so we could pass down what we learned to them and ORD peacefully.

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Sunday, August 19, 2007 Y

With less than 3 months left to ord. Starting to find camp life becoming more and more unbearable. Sometimes I really wish there is someone I could talk to, someone who could understand what I am going through and what I am feeling. Really makes one wish for a sibling to confide in.

Anyway I disliking my superiors more with each passing day. Work is losing its appeal with each passing min. And working environment seem to be getting worse every single day. There is completely no motivation to go to camp at all. And the only reason I am doing so and doing my job is cause you will be charged if you don't. I really hope I could find something to look forward to so that the day can pass faster whenever I am in camp.

Can someone save me from this abyss that I am stuck in and let me see some light to survive this remaining months till I ord? Save me pls....

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Well sorry for the long absence XD Been rather busy and such. Well for a start, I am offically inactive for wow. With my current situation and feelings I am going true. I find no desire to log in to wow at all. Will disclose my reason for doing so in due time but as for now. Tivada will not be coming for raids and will step down as a guild officer.

Anyway I bought a new computer. Went down to Simlim with Bing Hong the other day and went to made my own comp parts by parts. Total cost amounted to $2000 *GOSH!* But than again, I chose high end parts since I wanted this comp to last me as long as possible ^^ Playing those graphic intensive games are no longer laggy for me. Pity I decided to stop wow, oh well! The only bad thing is that due to the space it is taking, I cant keep it in my room. Which means I have to endure my parents bugging me every other second and I cant play till too late on weekdays =( Anyhow, this is wat my comp looks like? what do u think? Using 2.66Ghz Quad core processor, nvidea 8800 gts graphic card, 2 gb ram and a 19 inch widescreen LCD ^^

And I went out with part of my dear 2/5 class for pizza hut dinner too the other night. Its always nice to see old friends and you can chat as though you were never apart from each other at all. Hope will get to have another chalet at the end of the year ^^

~~~2/5 Forever~~~

Tried something new in cafe catel, taste really good. Just love the creamy chessy taste! The cheese juz seem to melt in ur mouth XD YUM! Reconmended to try for those who like eating cheesy stuff. wahahaha.

Than this week I went to sing K 2 times~~~ First time went to sing k-box with Phoon and Beng Yong my camp mates. We went to the JEC one, very ex wor~ $25 per person. So I order a beer to get my money worth. Also we ate a lot of tibits since the refills are unlimited XD Had a lot of fun singing with both of them. Can sing until 3am de but around midnight we decided that we had enuff. lol! Should do this again some times.

Than on sat, went to chinatown to sing k again. But this time at kster and with Jing Ze and Tse San, my course mates from OETI. Hehe. We kept singing a lot of S.H.E song and Jay's song. Too bad the package was only for 4 hours. But it was much cheaper than k-box. $18 per person. But it was during the weekend after all. And now I am a kster member. So next time go got discount. Wahahaha

Anyway this is all that I can rmb since the last post. But than again its been quite some time and my memory isnt that good anyway =P Besides this also managed to catch a few movies but I guess that is all ^^ Till next time den~

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Wednesday, August 01, 2007 Y

Well this weekend is definately S.H.E weekend, guess where I went on sunday? =P Yupz, went to S.H.E autograph session at IMM! I thought since IMM only opens at 8am should be all right to come before that. After all , the session only begins at 2pm. But when I arrived at 7.45am guess what? =.=

Anyway shortly after I joined the queue, I was joined by wei rong my sec sch frenz! What a lovely coincidence. And we were also shortly joined by our friends. So there was 4 of us queuing in the end. Hehe. But somehow the transition from 1st floor to the 3rd floor where the concert was held took a very long time. At first I thought we could be in the barricade, but end up there was so many people in front of us that we were sent to the 4th floor to wait instead. Dun ask me why but I think there were many people who cut queue =(

Anyway once things were stablised, the 3 of us went to get breakfast while weirong look after our spots. Time passed really fast actually while we were chatting and there was S.H.E songs blasting out from all over the queue. LOL! Than I heard someone said that u can get CD covers by bringing ur CD downstairs so I thought of taking a look. Since I miss out on the CD covers the last time.

In the end it was true and I got myself a lovely HEBE cover! After I went back upstairs and thinking how lucky I am to get this cover without queueing for it like what some ppl did back than. And I heard someone saying that the economic version can also get a cover, since I got that version too, I decided to go back down to get another one XD On my way down I was thinking, why not buy another ecnomic version so I could collect the whole set of CD covers =X Call me crazy if u wish but they are simply too lovely that I could not resist XD And finally...

Pretty soon after I got my covers, they told us that we could proceed down to the outdoor stage since the event would be starting soon. And here is us after we secured a location outdoors, had a pretty good view of the stage really except that it was a lil far =(

Anyway soon the place was pretty packed and when S.H.E appeared , everyone was like sqeezing to get to the front. I believe more barricades should been used, really suddenly become like no government, all rushing forward only ><

Anyway S.H.E only sang 2 songs and answered a few questions before the autograph session started. Due to time constrain and the vast amount of people that turn up, it was the only choice they have =(

And after they sign for a while, they said they needed a break. Ella went to get something to eat, Selina was talking to someone which I think was a crew while Hebe was sleeping. SO CUTE! XD

After that short break, the autograph session continues and pretty soon I managed to get my cds autograph. Too bad I could not take any close up photos since the cisco was pretty strict on cameras. But after that we were all happy to get our cd autographs and we all went home tired but happy ^^

Lastly would like to say... HEBE ROCKS! (My hearted melted when she look up and smile while i shook her hand XD)

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