Truthfully, I already suspected it. I told myself to move on, I know that I'm fighting for nothing, that I'm wasting my time holding on to something that will never be mine. And I really thought I DID moved on...

But somehow when I saw the news, it was like a knife stabbing my heart repeatedly again and again. I don't know why I was this badly affected as well, after all, I kind of expected it before this. I just realize, the truth hurts, I didn't get over her as I have claim but instead, avoiding the whole issue and just hoping that things would get better...

Ended up drinking heavily and doing something I know I will regret in future...
But at that point in time I didn't care, just wanted to numb the pain.

First time in my life that I felt so devastated, even worst than after a breakup...

But you know what... You've always been special to me, even if life takes us in different directions, that will never change.

"Sometimes everything needs to fall apart before they can fit together right"

All I can say that, things can only get better...

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Always be careful when changing your photographic equipment on site...
I dropped my ND filter into the sea =(

My mood was killed then, but I still tried to continue with my shots.
Here is one of them...


Anyway, had an awesome day out with my buddy, many jokes, laughter and fun as we are working on our individual shots. Next on my agenda is to work on my portraits...

Volunteers anyone? :P

Enough with the distractions, back to photography! ^^

Maybe it was all just a dream...

Labels: thoughts

How true are dreams a reflection of reality?

Labels: dreams, thoughts

I wish life would stop throwing me curve balls...

It's been ages since I last updated my blog. Since then, so many things have changed. After my last relationship fell apart, I decided to pursue my passion for photography. Picked up a Canon 600D with a kit lens, as well as a 55-250mm lens to start me off. Frankly speaking, compared to my last POS camera, there are not so many things to consider and after so many weeks of shooting, I'm still not really sure what ISO/shutter speed/aperture to use. But I'm slowly improving my skills and hopefully it shows in my photos as well. A few of my personal picks can be found in my online album (link on the left) and I hope you will enjoy them. =)

On another note, I'm sure my close friends heard me saying this to them a couple of time; that I will do want want to get into another relationship so soon because I wish to concentrate on my photography. I also jokingly added that the only way that I will do otherwise is if the right girl comes along, and that may even take years!

However, lately I been spending time with a certain someone, somehow it just feels so right when I'm with her. I really enjoy her company and many of her actions never fail to bring a smile to my face. After what happened with my previous relationship, I lost hope in relationship and really feel that they were overrated. This special someone brought back that hope and spark to me again. I really feel that this could be different. But, I don't wanna rush this and mess up everything we have going so far.

This song from Lady Antebellum really basically sums up what I'm feeling now...


Anyway to end this update, I will be heading down early to the Marina Bay area on National Day to get a good spot to set up my equipment for some firework shots. If anyone happen to be in the area, feel free to drop by and say hi! Also I hope that my shots will turn out good this time =)