Truthfully, I already suspected it. I told myself to move on, I know that I'm fighting for nothing, that I'm wasting my time holding on to something that will never be mine. And I really thought I DID moved on...

But somehow when I saw the news, it was like a knife stabbing my heart repeatedly again and again. I don't know why I was this badly affected as well, after all, I kind of expected it before this. I just realize, the truth hurts, I didn't get over her as I have claim but instead, avoiding the whole issue and just hoping that things would get better...

Ended up drinking heavily and doing something I know I will regret in future...
But at that point in time I didn't care, just wanted to numb the pain.

First time in my life that I felt so devastated, even worst than after a breakup...

But you know what... You've always been special to me, even if life takes us in different directions, that will never change.

"Sometimes everything needs to fall apart before they can fit together right"

All I can say that, things can only get better...

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